i really miss Hawaii. it was sooooo chill over there. i really miss going under the mango tree we had in the front and napping there for a few hours on the bench. clarity of mind and a worry free life style. why cant i have that?
what if i had to witness my vision slowly fade away?
what if i couldn’t do anything about it?
what if i had to go on with the rest of my life blind?
I’m asking this question cause last night i had a dream where my vision slowly faded away. it was a crazy experience. the thoughts of never being able to see the world is a depressing thing. i really hope that never happens to me.
hugest worry has been lifted of my shoulders. i feel so light that i can float. happinesss has filled the aybss i once had in me. euphoria. thats all that i can say about it. funny thing is. nothing really changed from yesterday. just the simplest of things. it would probably would have been 100x better if i didnt mess up in the first place. but either way im happy and content with this current status. just gotta stay humble is all and shit will slowly play its role. =)))
i hope i never have to take a life… i think i can do it if i had to but i think i would crack under the stress afterwards. i just dont see myself as that ruthless. the human life is precious. so everyone should live it up to the fullest. =)
i hope to have a lot of children…dont think im gonna start anytime soon tho lol. im def not ready for that type of commitment yet. children take a lot outa you hell i can barely take care of myself haha. i just love kids tho…and i wanna be known as the Manalo Clan XD